Songs that relate to me.

Yes, I know. I'm different, do I mind if you hate me for it? No. c:

A Trophy Fathers Trophy Son - Sleeping With Sirens
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gdT-JG2hb8w&ob=av2n
I feel this song relates to me because the past few years my dad wasn't in my life, and just walked away. I tried to understand why he walked away like he did, and I see that he did now because I am a problem child, and he was fed up with me. Not my brother, like the song says. "When i go to sleep at night, do you care?" that's exactly how I feel towards him. Like when it also says, "Is this what you call a family?" I don't think what I have is exactly a family..

The Way She Feels - Between The Trees
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=751x-Iyargg&ob=av2n
I feel this song relates to me because I've had a lot of problems in the past and I couldn't take it so I started cutting and such, and like the song says "All alone, the way she feels, left alone, to deal with all the pain drenched sorrow relief, bite the lip just forget the bleeding" it's how I felt, I felt  that I was alone in the world, with no body to turn to. Especially not my mom, but once she saw all the marks, she started caring, a lot. She cried when the doctor asked me if I was suicidal and I said "I don't know about anything anymore.." she started balling, she was so scared for me. She was one of the people I felt I had to live for, I saw how my brother was depressed about my marks, and I just had to stop. I made my friends cry because they were scared for me to be alone, I'll never forget my best friend of last year  named Ashley, she was my light when the rest of the world went dark, she stayed by my side no matter the cost. I'll always love Ashley for that, even though we're hardly on speaking terms, ♥

Save Your Heart - Mayday Parade
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UWYPNVyCZFQ
I feel like this relates to me because it says, "She turns the pages everyday just to change the mood but every chapter reads the same, it's so hard to make it through. Just try and get up, you gotta slowly brush off, I know that words aren't enough but you're better than this." it's how I feel, exactly how I feel, this song has so much meaning to me, no one would even understand. This is what I want to tell every single one of my friends, but they'd never understand why a song has so much meaning to me.

Creatures - Motionless In White
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lX1egjG_3NE
This song talks about being hurt, and about how we're all just creatures. In the beginning of the video, it says "You can always rinse the surface, but the stain will remain" it's so true, I really wish people would realize this isn't just screaming, it has a mean, they're angry. And they're going to try to get out by their music. I don't get why people judge people like this, because so what? They look different, it's how THEY want to look, don't voice your opinion where it wasn't asked for in the first place. I know I'm sick of being made fun of, and I'm not known world wide like Motionless In White. But this song says "We are the damned, the cursed and the broken, there's so much more inside us, we are the lost, the sick and unspoken, there's so much more inside us." And I wish people would see that, there IS so much more inside us then just what you see on the surface, it could be totally wrong, just don't judge people by how they look. Please think of this song next time you do so. :)

There For You - Flyleaf
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W98Tjuzc3-o
I know I said I didn't like Flyleaf, but I like this one song. Because this is how I feel towards my friend Butternut. I am selfish sometimes, and fake towards her, acting normal. And I want to be there for her. She's beautiful and I love her so so so so so much, and she doesn't see it. So I show her songs like this to show how I feel towards her. She's the only friend I know won't walk out on me for sure. Unless I want to leave, she won't leave me. I know she won't. She's probably the longest friendship I've kept since I've been a teenager and turned into a total hm, bitch I guess. She's the only one standing beside me telling me that I'm better than this, I'm better then the people who bring me down, and I need not to listen to their words. She actually pays attention to me, she's always been a true friend, even though I've been horrible to her, she still tries to calm me down when I get upset. And I love her for that, she carved her way deep into my heart, and I hope she stays there.

Perfect - Flyleaf
http://www.youtube.com/watch?NR=1&v=DEbr7zy-TVo&feature=endscreen
Once again, I do not like Flyleaf much at all. But this song, and the song there for you just hits home. This song is about not being perfect, and how people hate me for it. And how I can't stand to even look at myself, so I don't understand why people can even look at me and tell me I'm beautiful, I find it quite funny, actually. This song says
"All my efforts to clean me
Leave me putrid and filthy
And how can you look at me
When I can't stand myself
I'm tired to be honest
I'm nobody" and that's how I feel, I'm tired of trying, and honestly I'm nobody. I feel like all my efforts to brush myself off and make myself beautiful on the inside and out are worthless, I am left putrid and filthy, that's what it does.

Awkward Last Words - Armor For Sleep
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3VNvrO-JjRE
This song says "I wanna live again, I wanna start everything over again, I wanna make this right" I do. And "I'm gonna make this work, I'm gonna change everything wrong with me. I'll prove you wrong" it's exactly how I feel towards my sister, because I always am wrong, or awkward to her. I want to prove her wrong that I am not who she thinks I am, that I am a girl, whose just normal, I want to so bad. I wish I could. And it says "Alls I do is push you far away from me" well, I push EVERYONE away once they start getting close, I start being mean. So they don't talk to me anymore. I always do it. I have no clue why, I guess I get scared and I push them away. I feel so bad afterwards. I wish I could have one person to hang on to, I'm scared of being alone, but I make myself that way.

Yellow - Coldplay
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i-n75KVcGsw
This song has a definite meaning to me because my step dad listened to this when he was in Iraq every time he missed me. Because when I was little, I LOVED the color yellow, and I was his little girl, so of course he knew that I loved it. When he told me this is what he listened to, I cried. He said it reminded him of me so much, that it hit my heart. And it made me feel like he wasn't as insensitive as I thought he was, for a minute.. Anyways.

Iris - Goo Goo Dolls
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NdYWuo9OFAw&ob=av2e
I feel like this relates to me because it reminds me of my ex David, a lot. It's been a year since I last spoke to him, but no one understands how much he meant to me. And he's just.. gone. He put me through hell, and I stayed with him. because I was scared if he was gone, I'd be blank, and lost. It's how I still feel. I just want him to know who I am now. He doesn't though, and he never will again, sadly. This was one of OUR songs and I couldn't quit listening to it for the world. I really couldn't. I couldn't say I was "in love" with him, but I did love him, I don't care if you say I'm to young to know what that is. I don't. Care.

Welcome To My Life - Simple Plan
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r0U0AlLVqpk&ob=av2n
This song explains me, so much. It's how I've always felt. Do I care that this song is old? No. Do I care this band is overrated? No. I don't. I don't care what people say about my music. I don't. So don't try to change me. This song is how I feel, Simple Plan definitely understood me. Ha, Like when it says "Are you sick of everyone around? With the big fake smiles, and stupid lies, when deep inside you're bleeding." that's how I feel. I'm sick of EVERYONE around now a days, and they've always had the big fake smiles, and they lie all the time. Oh, and I am bleeding deep inside, because I'm hurt, I've always been left out in the dark, I've been kicked when I was down, and I've been pushed around. No one is there to save me when I'm on the edge of breaking down. No one tries to help me anymore. Everyone is slowly giving up on me, and I can tell. I'm sorry I'm such a problem child, but it's how I am. It's exactly how I am. Sorry for being me.

Little Lion Man - Mumford and Sons (Tonight Alive Cover)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0qbltGpjhpo
This would be a song relating to me because I feel like I've messed everything up with one of my best friends, Gunner. Because I waste my time trying to fix problems I've made inside my head. And he always blames me for hurting him, and I feel like I ALWAYS ruin everything with him, it's good that he cares about me, or he'd probably be long gone, I feel so bad sometimes when I screw him over, repeatedly. But it's not like he doesn't do it to me. I love that kid, so much. He has a place in my heart, just for him. He doesn't know it, but he does.

Perfect - Simple Plan
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RUi54JTgL5s&ob=av2n
This song is how I feel towards my step dad, once again, ha. I feel like that I didn't grow up according to his plan, and he thinks I'm wasting my time trying to get better at drawing and such to be a tattoo artist. I just want to make him proud, so much. I feel like I'm never going to be good enough for him, and he can't change me. But nothing lasts forever right? I knew I wouldn't always be his little girl, I'm sorry I can't be perfect. I try so hard to be. Just for you, and it doesn't work, ever. I'm never good enough, I can never do things right. I try not to think about the pain i feel from his rejection, and he used to be my hero, and it seems so far away when I was his little girl.. Feels like he doesn't care anymore.. At all.. I can't believe he fights with me still to, because I can't stand another fight, at all. I just can't. It hurts to bad, listening to him tell me how bad I am, how bad of a child I've always been. "Nothings gonna change the things that you said, and nothings gonna make this right again, please don't turn your back, I can't believe it's hard just to talk to you, but you don't understand" he doesn't understand, and it's SO SO SO SO hard to talk to him when he acts like a robot, with no feelings. I learned to be like him, and push people away, and constantly screw them over, I have those behaviors because I grew up with him. I can't believe I'll never be perfect for him..

More songs relating to me, TOMORROW! :3
Don't worry, I'll quit being so sappy. ♥